10.30pm, last night.

I take it all back. Blessed, I'm not. I'm in a living hell, well, since recently. Since that fcuking day I kind of got caught.

Then my father starts going against me. The next one, I got a scolding because his fcuking middle daughter complained to him saying that I always use her useless computer. Then the next, he caught me sneaking out by catching me rushing home and I got slapped and shouted at. My face and ear hurted. But that was alright, enough a blow for me to take. Then the next, he got angry for nothing because of a misunderstand. If things weren't clarified, whoo, I might've gotten a slap I so didn't deserve. The next, I'm not exactly sure if there still are any in between or whatever, this last one (before I decided to blog this out, which means there certainly would be more coming), I got slapped and got my ear pulled (obviously, with his fat hand, my tragus got hurt and it fcuking bled). Just because I repeatedly called his fcuking middle daughter a bitch (like this - me: bitch. she: blah blah. me: bitch.). What. tf. How about the other times when I got dissed worse by his fcuking middle daughter. And when she started insulting me and everything. I so fcuking did not mention a single thing to him. Even if I called her a bitch (obviously to her is a very commonly used word which apparently makes no sense to her proccessless brain), she wouldn't have made a big deal out of it in the past. In fact, she calls me a bitch so many times more than the times I call her a bitch. She just wants to suck up to him, somehow, by making him hate me or something. Now I'm supposed to be the worse child in his family or something. And he's going to be extra strict with me, looking at my DAILY timetable (as if I've ever had any). If I do anything against his 'Can't do' list, I'd be 'beaten until I bleed'. And I will get to see 'how fierce I(he) am(is) towards you(me)'. If he dares. I have a very evil thought in mind, and all my evil thoughts scares me. Like I've said. No matter how hard I try to change (FOR THE BETTER), my efforts will never be appreciated. Bosh, they wouldn't even realise I've tried. But now, I know not to do them any favours.
I will be some stupid, mouthless, answerless, unhelpful, emo, rebellious, dumb BITCH towards them. I will try at least. Now I know why she hated her like wtf.

And now I shall continue to wallow in self-pity.